When I uploaded this vlog to You Tube, I did of course add tags. I mean, even if this is just a rambly video of me looking pretty worn because it was the end of a long day and I desperately needed to wash my hair, even then I want it to rank in You Tube search.
Actually, I have been reading a lot about SEO and ranking and videography lately, but I´ll get to that a little later.
So when I used the tag: “Taking a break”, I instantly got a ton of suggested tags along the lines of: “Life Update: Getting a divorce” or “Life update: Why we broke up”. Which, I assure you guys, is totally NOT what has been going on lately.
I mean, we are not even “on a break” in a Friends kind of way. We are perfectly fine.
I bet the topic needs no introduction. Ever since Kat von D posted a picture on Instagram, claiming that she would raise her child without vaccination, it has been all over the internet.
And I am kind of glad it is. Not because someone with a huge following and influence spoke out against vaccines. That is harmful to the cause and has in the past proven to lead to a decrease in vaccination.
But because vaccination is a hot topic once again, with other influential people speaking up about their experiences (Caroline Hirons, just to name one).
See, transmittable diseases and vaccination are part of my daytime job. I have been on the radio numerous times, I am going to speak on a panel on this topic come Monday and if the time for talking is done, I am one of the squad that visits your school/kindergarten/whatever to see if the outbreak of measles happening there puts your child in danger and if quarantine is needed.
Whenever you try to incorporate something new into your life (usually the healthy stuff like working out, meditation or snacking on celery instead of crisps), people will tell you that it takes 30 days to create a new habit.
30 days of sticking to something apparently tricks your mind into accepting it as the new normal, so it gets easier to see it through.
Almost everyone that shares part of his life on the internet has been subject to hateful comments. They may be targeting your content (“Your sound is awful, buy a new mic!” – Nope), your appearance (“You are an ugly old hag and I cringe just looking at you” – Then don´t), sometimes even the things you said (“That was useless information and a waste of my time. Why do you think anyone cares?” – Probably because people take the time to leave comments)
I usually don´t bother giving them any attention, quickly reply in my head and move on. One of the perks of being older is that I don´t rely on external validation as much as I did when I was younger.
Every once in a while one stays with me though, the last time earlier this week. It all started with a comment I made on someone elses Instagram post. It was a post about Darphin skincare, rich in essential oils, the scent designed to be relaxing and comforting. You´ll know by now that relaxing is a recurring theme here on the blog, and I wrote something like: “The scent of a product is so important when it comes to unwind.”
I admit, I am stressed. No surprises here, I bet most people in my situation would be, yoga teachers being a possible exception.
And I know that being stressed isn´t healthy, and I KNOW that I am a stress eater (gimme all the carbs!), which isn´t healthy either. So I should probably do something about it.
Given that I can´t change the circumstances, and, quite honestly, don´t want to change them (seriously, giving up the kids is not an option, but giving up the job isn´t one either), I think I have read about every stress release technique there is.
There is an increased amount of cleaning videos showing up in my You Tube suggestions, and I have no clue why.
It can’t be based on my watch history. It can’t be based on Mr. Locas watch history either. He is really bad at remembering to switch profiles on our AppleTV, which is the reason that my feed shows as many “SUV tested in the dunes of Namibia” videos as it contains ASOS hauls, but cleaning videos surely aren’t his thing.
To be honest, I really have no clue why anyone would watch such videos anyway. Cleaning is a necessary pain, but watch others clean? What kind of masochistic behavior is that?
Or maybe it is sadistic, sitting there, cup of tea in hand, smiling at the screen: Hey gurrl, ya missed a spot there! Just sayin’!
Apparently a trend that I, once again, don’t understand and probably absolutely to my loss.
There are some struggles with motherhood that no one really prepares you for. And I am not talking sleepless nights and complete loss of privacy here.
I talk about the struggles you face when your kids develop their own taste and it is completely different to yours.
“It is a phase!” is what people tell me, and I cling on to that hope like a drowning woman. Because right now all my daughter wants is pink, glitter and unicorns. And if you know me just a little, pink, glitter and unicorns are not my style.
They used to be though, as I faintly remember. When I was around six, I had set my heart on having a princess party for my birthday, and I wanted a pink dress and pink glitter and a plastic crown to wear.